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It feels like it has been so long since I've written on here…probably because it has been a while. I don't think I'll be posting the rest of my 365, I might post pictures occasionally, but I've found that I don't necessarily have time to edit, decide and then post them here with an explanation as to why this picture means something to me, though it was a fantastically lofty goal, so much for completing something that I start, lol--but I attempted.

I see this blog changing, for the better…less random frivolous posts, probably more posts of some sort of substance, something that I can look back on and have an actually idea of where the heck my head was at.

I'm adoring my job…absolutely loving every little amazing thing about it. Talking to random people, going out on stories, it has all been fantastic. I've only been there a week and I'm just gushing. Seriously. It's a bit ridiculous, that being said, I've been lonely. It comes and goes, nothing too hardcore--but the fact that I live by myself, cook dinner for myself most nights, while empowering to a degree it is also a very somber place for me to be.

I'm still working on making friends out here, lol. I mean, I have my coworkers and I have my former classmates at the other station, but I haven't really met people around my age and I'm at a loss as far as how to do so. That's the thing about moving around a lot but still being in school--you make "friends" easily because you're always around people in your age group.

I got my paperwork for my taxes, I'm actually excited about that. I can use this money to cover some of my expenses--how tragic is it that I'm thinking about expenses and not all the fantastic ways I can spend my money? You want to know how bad it is? Today at work, we each began bragging about all the ways that we save money by cutting off items. How we only will have one light on in the house at a time, how many things we unplug when we leave for work. My coworker managed to have her power bill as low as $40. I haven't even gotten my power bill yet…I'm actually terrified. I can't even lie.

What else is new? Love. Ahhh, love. How can I even? I already addressed this. I'm lonely. The end…but it's not like an I want a boyfriend lonely, it's more of an…I want someone to cuddle with lonely…and that lonely always ends up making me feel cheap because I'm like--yo, I just need to get over it and sleep alone.

I've gotten really good at being alone.
I knew it would take some time, but hey--it works.

change is a'coming

20/365: Life comes at you fast.

And now I'm preparing to pack up everything that I own to move from my home with my grandparents in NJ to get an apartment in a city in Florida because I just landed my first reporting gig. Yes. Me. On TV. Being...*eyebrow raise*...serious.

I know. It's hard to imagine...but go with me on this.

Anyway, I'm turning in my two weeks notice on Wednesday and then it's all up from there.

To celebrate my new job, my grandparents and I went to the Sixers game against the Indiana Pacers. It was so much fun, we ate at the Capital Grille, I had filet mignon and garlic roasted mashed potatoes (so yummy) and then we watched them kick some tail.

The apprehension about what this job means for me didn't come until about 15 mins ago when I stopped to think about the fact that I'm packing up everything and leaving in less than a month. In less than a month...everything...everything changes.

being broke on christmas

3/365: Nothing sucks more than being broke around Christmas.

I checked my bank account this morning to see what I could afford to get for my parents, grandparents, and little sister--because those are the only people I can even think of buying something for--and I was hit hard by the balance.

Literally, $0. In checking and savings. I thought maybe there was a mistake, but no--everything documented told me the same thing. I only had the $18 in cash to my name to spend on gifts. All things being considered, I knew that things would be tight this year, but had no idea how tight. I don't get paid until next Friday, I still have to get to work and currently only have a 1/4 tank of gas...and let's not talk about tolls or paying for parking.

Thankfully it's Christmas, so the flip side of this depressing situation is that I will probably get some sort of money. Hell, I'd be happy with $30 to my name because then at least I could use what's left of that $18 (I spent around $5 on cards) for gas and then use the $30 for tolls and parking.

With that being said, my resolutions for the new year obviously have something to do with saving money, because my current situation is not something I ever want to deal with again. Though I'm sure my family will appreciate the love that will be going into these cards, I wish I could do what I normally would which is buy them something nice...or at least make something.

Next year, a lot of things will be changing. Am I ready? Of course not. But I'm starting to plan now so that I can act accordingly.